THE WORLD'S SADDEST LOVE ~~ E.L.F - SUPER JUNIOR

“Our Love Story Is Different From Others, Super Junior and E.L.F is the World’s Saddest Love”

Instead of hand in hand walking in the park, I stay at home…with my computer…watching your performance…

Instead of going to concerts together, I stay at home…let your voice raise me up…

Instead of going out to eat, I stay at home…just looking at your pictures…but that made me feel so full…

Instead of watching movie in the cinema, I stay at home…watch again and again your drama…

Instead of loving 1 person, I love 13 oppa…

Instead of being jealous, I’m happy and willing to share you with thousands of E.L.F…

Instead of having argument, we only have peace time…

Instead of saying goodbye, we promise to stay side by side with each other ‘till the end…

But …our love is same as others’…Because we also have smile and tears…

Because of you, I can smile happily …

Because of you, I can’t stop my tear keeps falling…

I don’t know since when you’ve become a part of my life.
You control my life, my feeling, my emotions, all that belongs to me.
I can’t do anything but loving you more and more.

My friends asked me why I can have such an unreal love, one-side love, sad love and hopeless love like that …
Why I can love someone that I may not have a chance to face them one time in my life…

How can I answer them?
How can I express my feeling?
How can I tell them that they’re totally wrong?

Because, they’re never once an E.L.F, they won’t understand this kind of feeling.

Why do they call it’s unreal when my heart is telling the true…?
Why do they call it’s one-side when the one i love, they love me too…?
Why do they call it’s hopeless when this love give me strength…give me power to get over my life’s difficuties..make me hope..make me dream..?

But there’s one thing my friends are right.This is a sad love…a saddest love
This love hurt me a lot…

I started loving you because of your smile, all your shows are very funny and humorous…
Those shows made me laugh a lot…

But the more I love you, the more I cry …

I cry when you won the first time…the moment that I was supposed to smile happily…but i don’t know why tears keep falling down out of my control.

I cry when you had a car accident and wonder why I can’t be the one who had accident instead of you…

I cry when you’re devided…

I cry when I see thousands of E.L.F fight for you, but I’m just here, helpless…

I cry when you actually come back after 1 year and 6 months…

I cry when I miss Bummie so much…

I cry when you won 1st Mutizen after coming back…

I cry …

When my angel Teukie talks about his great-grandmother …
When my Fishie shows how much he loves and misses his father …
When my YeSung send the thankfulness to his mother …
When KyuHyun confesses with his dad he sorries but he feels happy when he can be together with other members and fans …

….

I cry when I can’t keep my promise, to make you get No.1 13 times…
But I broke my promise…I sorry …

…

I cry, just simply when you cry…
Because I can’t be there beside you… wipe away your tears, so i will be here… cry with you ….

…

Maybe I will never know how a love can be so painfully..
If I don’t love you…

In my next life, I won’t love all of you. Because in my next life, I won’t be an ELF anymore.
In my next life, there won’t be ELF, there won’t be Super Junior.
In the next life, I only wish you were yourselves.

No more Super Junior’s Leeteuk, only the privately quiet and delicate, Park Jung Soo;

No more Super Junior’s Heechul, only the loud but surprising, Kim Hee Chul;

No more Super Junior’s Hankyung, only the gentle and thoughtful one who makes delicious fried rice, Hangeng;

No more Super Junior’s Yesung, only the one who has an artistic voice, Kim Jong Woon;

No more Super Junior’s Kangin, only a glib-tongued one who likes drinking, Kim Young Woon;

No more Super Junior’s Shindong, only the one who doesn’t look very eye-catching but is full of talent, Shin Dong Hee;

No more Super Junior’s Sungmin, only the one who can be cute to make his parents happy, Lee Sung Min;

No more Super Junior’s Eunhyuk, only the one who shows all his gums as he smiles widely, Lee Hyuk Jae;

No more Super Junior’s Donghae, only the one who works so hard for his father’s dream, Lee Dong Hae;

No more Super Junior’s Siwon, only the one who has a princely air about him yet likes skinship, Choi Si Won;

No more Super Junior’s Ryeowook, only the cute and shy one who has a heavenly voice, Kim Ryeo Wook;

No more Super Junior’s Kibum, only the one who plays his PSP so much that he forgets to eat, Kim Ki Bum;

No more Super Junior’s Kyuhyun, only the one who can show a bright and evil smile, Cho Kyu Hyun;

Not Super Junior a group, one life of Super Junior is enough.

Let all the love and charm be used up in this life, not leaving anymore for next time.

All those unnecessary times and things will pass..

Be the individuals you all used to be.

There won’t be Super Junior, no more massive amount of fans surrounding you, no more bodyguards protecting you, no more unnecessary discussions or rumours,

You can be free to do what you want, to love who you want to love,

You don’t have to cover up just to go for a walk in the park,

You can walk hand in hand with your girlfriends, eating cake together, watching movies together..

You can watch concerts with your family, but then it will be someone else on stage, not Super Junior anymore…

When that time comes, you won’t have to stay up at nights, you won’t have just 2 or 3 hours of sleep due to packed schedules,

All of you can eat well, sleep well..

When that time comes, you won’t have backaches from long hours rehearsing dances, won’t leave bruises and injuries on your young bodies..

You won’t have to say things like “Once the camera is on, I have to change from Park Jung Soo to Leeteuk, Super Junior’s Leader, and I have to show only the best to everyone.”

When that time comes, even if you’ve injured yourself, you will be made to rest, and you won’t have to grit your teeth through performances just for the fans.

When that time comes, you won’t be the Super Junior that has thousands of people cheering for you..

But as for now, you are Super Junior that belongs to ELF. This is something that cannot be changed..

All ELF can do for you is: love you, love you very much, love you very very much, do our best in loving you.

Because in the next life there won’t be Super Junior, we will use all the love we have in this life to love you.

In this life, I will love you with all I can. In this life, let ELF love you with all we can.
In the next life, please live a life that belongs to you..

In the next life, I won’t love all of you, really.

Because in the next life, my world won’t consist of Super Junior, Super Junior won’t exist anymore.

However, if in my next life, Super Junior still exists,
I will still choose to become an ELF

Super Junior and E.L.F is the world’s saddest love….

And if I can choose again, I still want to be an E.L.F and I still choose loving you.

We’ll share happiness and sadness together…

Because we’ve started together so we should stay with each other forever…

Kyuhyun Letter to Hankyung

Kyuhyun writes a letter to Hankyung after Hankyung had been apart from him” 

Dear:
my only one Chinese Hankyung hyung… Hankyung hyung, this is your GameKyu, your DraKyu, your KyuMong, and your 小13 (Little 13) and recently adding two more nicks, so now you can also call me as SlideKyu or DanceKyu.How are you hyung? Do you eat well? You seem much thinner now compare to the last time I saw you. Obviously you had been with us for more than 5 years already and nearly 10 years with another 11 hyungs since the training time, so I guess you must be used to with our Korean food and in a sudden you moved back to China, and yes everything is different from here even just a little or else.Hyung, have you seen our Bonamana yet? It’s very successful now, we have owned 2 1st place prizes so far from Music Bank, we will have a big success like what we’ve done before with “U”, “Don’t Don” and “Sorry Sorry” too right? 

For me, those hit songs of us have different meaning. First,“U”, the most important and meaningful to me, this is the debuted song for me as a member of an amazing Korean idol boy band Super Junior. 

When we were about to perform the ComeBack stage of “U” everybody
especially Teukie hyung told me not to worry, not to be very nervous
since I’ve been given a God Voice but I was still that way yet then only one sentence could make me relief, it wasn’t from anyone but you, Hankyung hyung. I still remember until now and will never forget it even it’s been almost 4 years long already; do you remember what you had said to me that time hyung? Every time we had to perform on stage, “Don’t worry too much Kyu, don’t be nervous Kyu, I’m sure you can do it without
any worries. I totally understand how you feel right now just like the first time I was here with the other 11 of us, and yes, in this kind of condition, you’re even better than me since you’re Korean like them, unlike me so be confident, Cho Kyuhyun fighting!” this long sentence keeps popping out on my mind, keeps making me more confident, keeps giving me more power, really, I really thank you hyung. 

Then, 2Jib (2nd Album), we were successful again for our “Don’t Don” honestly I don’t want to talk about this, I’m hurt every time thinking about
that situation, I really hate that time yet I also love that time the most in the same time. I do remember it’s the hardest time ever in the whole life time of mine. I almost gave up everything, almost put everything down and went away but everything went contrast because of my 12 hyungs include you, you guys cheered me up, gave me another hope, chance to continue fighting and finally, I did, not only me but us. We did it with “Super Junior, Don’t Don – Come Back” and yes, we were all white blond along with Sungmin hyung too. 

I, Kyuhyun thank so much to the 12 of you, decided not leave me, decided to wait me no matter how long it took and I’m really proud of myself that I could make Super Junior stage which is a stage of 13 boys even I appeared only less than 1 minute long but this is how we call a “Super Junior Stage”Later on, our 3Jib (3rd album) “Sorry Sorry” we made many hits, broke many records and owned many prizes. I admitted that I was somehow a little bit disappointed because there was only 12 just because of Kibum hyung wants to focus on his acting career, we can’t stop him or what but supporting him instead. You know, it’s not comfortable to see only 12 heads, 12 mics, 12 pairs of shoes, 12 sets of performance clothes and I felt like I was forgotten since my number is 13, every time preparing to go for a stage performance, Teukie hyung always count to make sure no one missing or else, he started yelling out “1” and pointing to himself then Heechul hyung with yelling “2” and so on until pointing at me but yelling as “12” not “13”. 

But there was someone who helped me by a sentence: “Kyu, no matter what, no matter when, no matter where, Super Junior is always 13” and yes, just because of this sentence, I imagined that Kibum hyung is always there, on the stage, sing and dance with us. Do not wonder who said this; again he’s the one I’m missing much, called Hankyung. Moreover, Hankyung, Siwon, Donghae, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun were placed into another sub-group along with ZhouMi and Henry called as Super Junior under the leading of Hankyung. 

Just like Super Junior, Leader Teukie hyung always shout: “we are Super
Junior, 우리는 슈퍼주니어-예요 ~~(u-ri-neun Syupeo Juni-OR~~)” and for Super Junior M, it is the same, you, the leader always introduce us as:
“大家好，我们是 Super Junior – M~~ (Hello everybody, we are Super Junior – M~~)” I miss this shout very much.Anyway, do you know you’re one of the group’s lead dancers? Do you know what happen when you’re gone? I was replaced at your position in the dance break, this is very difficult for me, I always hurt myself every time practicing. It’s very unfamiliar when no seeing in the dance break section. I miss your dance move, I miss you MJ tribute and I extremely miss your unclear pronunciation when speaking Korean. 

I can’t write anymore, my hand is trembling now, my letters are uglier and
uglier, hope you can understand and don’t wonder why this letter seem
to have spots of water, they are my tears, I cried along while writing
this, every moments of us are popped out in front of me like the reality. Okay, should be ended by this now, I have one more sentence to say before saying good bye to you. Hankyung hyung, do think and remember that, we are brothers from Leeteuk to Kyuhyun since the time we’re called as a member of Super Junior, just one word Super Junior will be enough for us to introduce ourselves,you’re forever a part of Super Junior and will never be forgotten from Super Junior no matter how you decided to do, no matter what you’re going to do, we’ll support you with the love of our 12 hearts. 

I feel you’re always beside me even we’re apart, just because of “SUPER JUNIOR is ONE” Good luck and do take care of yourself! 

Your lovely Evil Magnae Kyu!

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so touching letter T.T

but for notice, this is just a FanFiction. Kyuhyun not write this.

I'm really appreciate to those ELF who made this.full of true emotion.

Super Junior ELF, fighting!!

T.T

(101203) Super Junior Change my life

More day I more happy.

Really , after I know everything about Super Junior, my life is changed be better.

I’ve get a lot friends from other country just because I’m ELF.

Wooaahhhh~~~ that’s so damn amazing! Totally wonderful!

I never think something like this before. Became an ELF we can get too many happiness and good thing. I never has any negative thinking since A have Super Junior in my mind. Everything is alright, no something wrong or else. I swear I will loving them properly.

Super Junior + ELF = FATE!!!!